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I’m coming out…

I suppose I knew sometime in the mid-eighties.

And looking back, I had deep feelings even prior to that.  I always enjoyed wearing make-up.

It has been a lifetime of pain.

I’ve always felt like I was surrounded by people who were different from me and I could never really express myself in a way they would choose to understand.  You just don’t know what it’s like living in a world that looks down on you, and laughs.

Well… today is the day. And this blog is the place.

I want to scream at the top of my lungs so the whole Universe can hear!

I’m a Clown!

Did you hear me Universe?!

I’m a CLOWN! So SCREW YOU!

It’s been a long struggle knowing how I really identified and yet not being able to simply be myself. The oppression I’ve lived with for decades in a society filled with pompous windbags who take themselves far too seriously… and not having the ability to throw a pie in their face… or squirt them with the little flower on my lapel.  The facade of intelligence worn by the foolish has always been transparent to me.  I knew it wasn’t right.  I knew I was OK and everybody else was not.

Well, it’s time.

I’m applying the zinc and taking a new name!

I’ve decided to take the name Bahzoh (Pronounced ‘shar-DAY’) because that’s what I’ve called myself all these years. Now you all MUST call me that too. In fact, you all MUST accept my new, old, identity or else you’re all haters, racist and bigoted clown-o-phobes.  Just because I dress in colorful onesies and wear a rubber nose gives you absolutely no excuse to notice… and if you do notice, because I’m going to make sure you do, then you have no other option but to clap your hands like a mime with overly exaggerated approval.

I know I’m Brave for making something so deeply personal into an abject spectacle.  No doubt you’ll all shower me with awards and accolades.  I deserve it.

You’re welcome.

Bahzoh at makeaneffort

PS. I’m getting a job at the DMV.  See you soon.


Macklemore is a Coward

Or, Why do we let cheap and easy get rewarded?

I’m going to spin out into a very brief commentary on Pop Culture… Ben Haggerty, AKA Macklemore has a Top 40 hit called “Same Love”.  Lyrics below.

“Same Love” (with Ryan Lewis) (feat. Mary Lambert)

When I was in the third grade I thought that I was gay, ‘Cause I could draw, my uncle was, and I kept my room straight. I told my mom, tears rushing down my face She’s like “Ben you’ve loved girls since before pre-k, trippin’ ” Yeah, I guess she had a point, didn’t she? Bunch of stereotypes all in my head. I remember doing the math like, “Yeah, I’m good at little league” A preconceived idea of what it all meant For those that liked the same sex Had the characteristics The right wing conservatives think it’s a decision And you can be cured with some treatment and religion Man-made rewiring of a predisposition Playing God (Italics mine), aw nah here we go America the brave still fears what we don’t know And God loves all his children, is somehow forgotten But we paraphrase a book written thirty-five-hundred years ago I don’t know And I can’t change Even if I tried Even if I wanted to And I can’t change Even if I tried Even if I wanted to My love My love My love She keeps me warm She keeps me warm She keeps me warm She keeps me warm If I was gay, I would think hip-hop hates me Have you read the YouTube comments lately? “Man, that’s gay” gets dropped on the daily We become so numb to what we’re saying A culture founded from oppression Yet we don’t have acceptance for ’em Call each other faggots behind the keys of a message board A word rooted in hate, yet our genre still ignores it Gay is synonymous with the lesser It’s the same hate that’s caused wars from religion Gender to skin color, the complexion of your pigment The same fight that led people to walk outs and sit ins It’s human rights for everybody, there is no difference! Live on and be yourself When I was at church they taught me something else If you preach hate at the service those words aren’t anointed That holy water that you soak in has been poisoned When everyone else is more comfortable remaining voiceless Rather than fighting for humans that have had their rights stolen I might not be the same, but that’s not important No freedom till we’re equal, damn right I support it (I don’t know) And I can’t change Even if I tried Even if I wanted to My love My love My love She keeps me warm She keeps me warm She keeps me warm She keeps me warm We press play, don’t press pause Progress, march on With the veil over our eyes We turn our back on the cause Till the day that my uncles can be united by law When kids are walking ’round the hallway plagued by pain in their heart A world so hateful some would rather die than be who they are And a certificate on paper isn’t gonna solve it all But it’s a damn good place to start No law is gonna change us We have to change us Whatever God you believe in We come from the same one Strip away the fear Underneath it’s all the same love About time that we raised up… sex And I can’t change Even if I tried Even if I wanted to And I can’t change Even if I tried Even if I wanted to My love My love My love She keeps me warm She keeps me warm She keeps me warm She keeps me warm Love is patient Love is kind Love is patient Love is kind (not crying on Sundays) Love is patient (not crying on Sundays) Love is kind (I’m not crying on Sundays) Love is patient (not crying on Sundays) Love is kind (I’m not crying on Sundays) Love is patient (not crying on Sundays) Love is kind (I’m not crying on Sundays) Love is patient Love is kind
OK… got it?
So Macklemore has positioned himself as, and is being hailed as, a Leading Voice in Liberal Tolerance when it comes to Homosexual Love.
On the contrary;
Macklemore is a Coward.
One must understand that anytime you read a story, or listen to a song, the writer has Carefully chosen the words.  So Listen, Carefully.
Macklemore specifically chooses not just to express his deep concern he might have been Gay when he was a child (because he kept his room clean), and subsequent “relief” once he determined, (his mother told him) he was NOT… he then Chooses Mary Lambert to sing a chorus about Lesbian Love.  Lesbian Love… Not the Love one Man shares with another Man… Lesbian Love
Why does this matter?
Two reasons.
First, it immediately makes Macklemore disingenuous.  Take a moment and replace the incredible Mary Lambert with a Male singer weilding a Extraordinary Baritone reminiscent of say Isaac Hayes.  Then change the words to “He Keeps Me Warm.”  I’ll wait.
How does that feel?  Different?
Second of course is the fact that a Majority of Humans have no problem with Lesbians.  Zero problem.

There has been an entire Movie industry built upon Lesbian “Love”.  An Industry so large and so prolific that it has determined the format we watch all movies in at home.

Why?  Because…

Lesbians Like it.

Heterosexual Men Like it.

Heterosexual Women don’t mind it as much as they often profess… In fact, most arguments against porn from women is related to it undermining their individual influence over Men.  In other words; Objectification… Destruction of the Family… Unreasonable expectation… body image… etc.  (The Exploitation of Women argument(oddly never Men) becomes slightly more difficult in the internet age where many of the Female AND MALE porn actors are accessible in terms of expressing opinions outside of the movies they participate in.  The majority of these people make it clear they are Choosing to Participate of their own Free Will.  Human trafficking related to porn exists… as it does in prostitution and illegal garment manufacturing industries.  It is horrible and already illegal.  There are no fans of slavery, in any form, on this site…)

This above phenomena has a great deal to do with Biological Imperatives.  In other words, hard wiring of the species… good or bad.

So not only did Macklemore take the road headed to the low hanging fruit displaying his own prejudices, he also tried to make sure his song wouldn’t offend his friends in the Rapper community.  Where’s the courage in that?  What barriers, exactly, are being torn down?  What growth in acceptance is he promoting by doing something so small?  What’s brave about doing that small something in 2013 when the porn industry has been doing it in front of a massive audience since it’s inception?

In the end, nobody cares.  At least those among us who believe in the supremacy of the Individual don’t care.

What I do care about however is accolades being poured upon an individual who is neither courageous nor tolerant.  And I care about those accolades being offered only because of the importance certain factions of our society wish to fuel further balkanization for political purposesWhy bother mentioning the Right Wing Conservatives when it’s the Rapper Community who has the problem… just not with Lesbians.?  Is it just me saying it?

Because you’re a Coward.

(For those of you who might want to bring to my attention that Macklemore has MEN in his video, I will respond that nobody sees the video anymore.  And, he knows that.  Where do you go?  MTV? VH1?  Nice try not to think.)


Jason Collins

This doesn’t deserve more than a few lines.

During this mornings “sudden” press conference President Obama said that individuals should be judged on their accomplishments not their sexual orientation.

Good so far.

President Obama then went on to say that Jason Collins was a “Hero” for openly declaring he is a homosexual.

This is where we part ways in regard to intellectual consistency.

Being Homosexual is not an achievement. It is no more a “goal reached” than being heterosexual. He did not “overcome” being a heterosexual… nor did he spend years training for this day.  It’s no different from ones skin color, height, hair color or parents.  You had nothing to do with it.  It’s not an achievement, it simply is.

President Obama might have said Jason Collins was “brave” for coming out considering the apparent anti-gay sentiment which we are finding out permeates Professional Sports…  (The only aspect of this story I find mildly interesting, as I was unaware of the level of disdain held by some.) but “Hero” is a bit much.  Declaring oneself “gay” is nothing new.  Frankly, it’s the “declaring” that is obnoxious.  When a person comes “out of the closet” there should be no one in the room to see it… in other words, no one should care.

Assigning “Hero” status to an individual due to something he had nothing to do with is disgusting. There was no “choice” in the matter for Jason. If there was “choice” involved… and deciding to be homosexual was somehow an extremely difficult choice to make and by doing so elevated him to role model status then I will stand corrected.  Do we assign “Hero” status because one is born a Man?  Woman? Black? Chinese? In New York?  In Wichita?  On a Sunday?  At noon standard time? These are all things you have no choice in.

I have mentioned before that intellectual consistency must be suspended in order to subscribe to Liberal agenda items. This is yet another example.

President Obama is losing his friends. He is losing his power. He is panicking as he watches the potency of his Presidency wane quickly into his second term. This pandering is just a symptom of the greater disease.

I’m sure Jason is a fine person. I will judge his ultimate status by his accomplishments on and off the court… not by who he chooses to sleep with.

Can we move on now?

We all have more important issues at hand.

The Left has a country to destroy…

The rest of us have a country to save.

Jason Collin’s sexuality has nothing to do with saving this country, any more than mine does.

So let’s talk about the same Press Conference where President Obama once again laments the existence of Guantanamo Prison.  His prison.  His prison he has not closed yet.  His prison he promised to close his first day in office which supposedly led many people to vote for him.  His prison he yet again “wishes” were closed but failed to do so immediately after this stupid press conference.  He is the Commander-in-Chief who is in control of this prison he hates so much.

Or… let’s talk about the use fo chemical weapons in Syria… or the complete abandonment of our diplomats in Benghazi who were left to die… or the sky rocketing costs of Obama Care… or Radical Islamic Terror on our shores…